Catch me when i fall once again.

Good morning my dear blog. i just woke up. soo last night after going offline, i went to watch movie untill around 7.30am in the morning. i didnt know at all untill my mom came and ask if i got sleep or not. haaha! that time was around 6.00am. Time passed really fast weihh. i didnt know its around 7.30am that time. after my movie. i slept till around 1pm cause my mom bang the door and shouting here and there. dont know what the fuck is wrong with her. and i am supposed to go to kdu for their swimming gala. pamela my twin smsed me and when i saw that msg. it's already 1.00pm. i'm so sorry that i missed this chance. i'm so sorry. i'm' really tired when i just woke up. and i'm gonna go genting later. arh! i dont wanna go la. damn boring weih! cause my parents are going for concert. and for me?! i'm gonna stay with my maid cause none of my friends wanna go with me. i might gonna drag my maid to watch movie with me when i'm in genting or eat la. haahaa! or maybe i can try all the ice-creams they got there too?! it'll be fun weihh! kay. soo. i just woke up. haven have my breakfast or lunch yet. not hungry at all. dont ask me why. i feel like going out like last night again. really miss last night. time passed so fast and its another day. Time pass so fast and today is already one month breaking up with my 6th ex-boyfriend. i miss my past with him but he didnt know how to appreciate me. but i guess its just like revenge. revenge on what i've done to other of my ex's. I felt so wrong and sad. i feel like having all my relationship start all over again. i shouldnt use them or anything. i shouldnt accept them cause i have just a little bit of feelings for them. i felt so. sad. this is the only word i have in my mind. and regret that i didnt know how to appreciate people who loves me. but i believe, from now on, after this awful experience, i'll appreciate all of my boyfriends or another guy in future. i promise and i swear. my heart is fully recovered from the past and pain. those pain of arrows going through my heart, i will never forget. that awful and hurting experience. from now on, i'll seriously wait for the right one to come. i dont wanna get hurt anymore. I dont wanna feel the pain in my heart. i remmember those tears that had flow from my eyes. those tears didnt worth a single thing at all. maybe a little bit of your love but neither than that. its NOTHING. And those lies, i''ll never forget. cheating or me lying to me, finding a reason to escape. Those things you said, its all lies. you said you'll never leave me and you love me till world's end. its all lies. i'll never trust you anymore. even as a friend. you didnt know how i felt, i shouldnt have put my trust on you and i should have loved you at the first place. I am regret and i'll never forget the day, the day i got hurt the most in my life, 7th of june 2007. that day when i broke up from the person i really loved. but yeahh. its the pass. lets not talk about it. cause i believe that god dont treat me bad. i believe god will send some angel protecting me from getting hurt once again. i am so gonna wait for another one. the right one for me, the perfect one for me (: I'm gonna start my new life today and forget about the pass. but not that awful experience that i've went through hardly in the past. *hugs and kisses*

i am going to wait patiently for the perfect one. [ my heart is cured once again]


ps, i'm gonna start waiting till the right one to come.