I know i have been a real bad girl.

i cant sleep, i cant sleep. i dont know why. there ain't any reason. i just cant sleep! its 2.30now! and i'm still not asleep yet. i am so bored too! i guess everyone is sleeping like a pig now. but my eyes are like as big as an goldfish. and downstairs, my brother's girlfriend, my brother and he's friends are playing mahjong. i seriously cant sleep. dont think i wanna go church tomorrow. i'm so fucking bored! i went through almost everyone's friendster and went to loads of people's blog. i should be studying by now, cause pmr's first trial is coming in two week's time. i have no confidence and i have not prepared at all. as usual, i'll try not cheat in this exam from now on. i wanna know where is my standard. can someone make me sleep ?! time is passing so god damn slow. i've been repeating the same old songs for dont know how many times. my hamsters are like running 24-7. i'm thinking about next year. i'm thinking about what school will i be in next year. i really hope that i can go back to kdu. can someone grand my wish to come true? i found out that my life aint' that happy as last two years in kdu and now i know why cant i sleep. its because i've slept for12hours and more from yesterday till this afternoon. i woke up around 1.30 in the afternoon today. no wonder la! and seriously, i found out that life in kdu was totally great. i regret saying that kdu is boring. but seriously, after i leave, i found out that there's actually a lot of people cares about me and really loves me for me (: i heart them all. i know i cant live in this world without them and their support. i miss you all my biatch and bastards. and this morning, when i wake up. i was suddenly thinking. about marrying. i'm like. i cant wait to know who is that guy. the perfect guy who loves me realy much. its like the guys in this world is not like last time anymore. the guys nowadays are mostly players. i dont know why. i got this feeling that i cant trust guys anymore. they're like gonna break my heart everytime. i just cant trust guys. you see. last time, what happen to two of my ex in kdu, is because i didnt trust them at all. and you see, when i trust a guy, they broke my heart. i serioulsy dont know what to do. i'm so bored now. i got thing running in my mind. i feel like going out for a walk. but its too late. its dangerous. i feel like going to school. kdu i mean. not this new school. this new school gives me the creeps, the scared and the boredom. i hate it. i want a school with laughters, joy and loves. than those craps. i serioulsy have nothing to blog about now. just as usual. i really cant sleep. i hope someone can bang me to sleep. and i even edited two pictures (: yeah. i think that's it. love you all hell loads. sleeptight, sweet dream, dream of me *hehee*, dont let the bed bugs bite. *kisses and hugs*

my one and only love for her (: in good and bad times, she was there for me.

the bimbo-ness in me (:

ps, oh god; please grand my wish to come true.