I feel so lost without you around.

just woke up as usual. first thing, check the phone. one sms. by jeanette instead of him. dissapointed again. then went and prepare myself. then now, here. infront of the comp again! but today is gonna be a fun day (: gonna have barbeque party later. so jeanette is coming earlier than the others to help me out with this. i'm gonna learn how to make jelly! yay! haha. i know i'm weird. i never make jelly before. and shit! i dont have those trey to make shapes. jeanette!! how?! didnt get to online just now. cause system down. now okay ad. yay! heehee (: i miss you dear! its like loads of emo songs is coming up. damn it. haihzzz.. later, i am gonna see couples together. haihz. its gonna make me miss you more. i feel so empty withouht you. kay. mummy just called. and i ask her if she told the maid about this party. then my mom is like i didnt. then i ask why. then she say she scared that the maid will be piss off. i'm like wolao! you give her money to let her work here one ler. scared of her for what? somemore she's not the boss okay? you're the one. then my mom is like. i scared la. she so fierce. i'm like omg. better change maid la. damn it. arghh! now i have to settle myself. i dont care la! she's just a maid. cant do anything much. dear ah dear!! i miss you damn it fucking much you know?! wonder if you still miss me. or still give a damn about me. if i'm you, no matter how, i'll try to call you no matter what happens. and i realy hope you're gonna call me tonight. if you still remmember what day is it. i'll wait for you to call kay? i really hope you remmember what day is it. i miss you and i love you. heart you all too my friends. cant wait to see some of you tonight. *hugs*


ps, do you care about how i feel.