i cant stop thinking about him.

i want him! i want him! i still cant stop crying. i'm so sucky. i want him. i think he's gonna dump me. i got so jealous when he talks to other girls. i got jealous so easily! i remmember i wasnt like that with my ex before. i dont care about my ex at all. i think i'm seriously desperate and crazy over him. i hope he can tell me he love me. i want him. i wanna be with him forever. but i know it will never happen. he's too hawt. and loads of girls wants him. i dont think he love me like how much i love him. i cant stop thinking! my head hurts. i wanna sleep. but i cant. i cant stop crying. i hate myself! i'm so useless. should i just runaway, commit suicide or just let him go? i dont wanna break up with him. i love him too much. i think if he leaves me, i'll go crazy. i'm always scared when he's angry or sad. because i'm way to dumb. the only thing i can talk about is horny stuff. how useless can i be? i want him. seriously, i love him too much. like what my friends said. i cant survive without him. i dont know why. i never love a guy this much. i know its stupid but i cant help it falling in love with him. i wanna love him more. but one of my teacher told me, dont put tooo much feelings on him because who knows one day when we broke up, i'll be very sad. but i dont care! i wanna love him as much as i could. i'm so jealous of some other couples! they're like always happy together. i dont wanna think about anything now. but i cant. cause i just cant stop thinking about him. i love youd dear. dont ever leave me. please. you know how much i love you.

ps, i love you too much.