get out from my life.

i am getting piss off with my family!!!! i feel like dying already! i really cant stand it! my parents and my second brother said that i'm cheap because i let a guy to hug me. i mean! wat the fuck la kay? wat century are they in?! they said me hugging a guy is damn it cheap! fuck la kay?! i hate themm!! and my brother is like a boss here! even my mom is scared of him! fuck la!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate him!! i hate him! i really hope he can go die! get out of my life! i want my life to be happy and i can go anywhere i want. they're really tooooo strict! i hate them! my brother thinks he damn big at home is it?! and you know what?! i told my parents to get me a versace wallet that i wanted. then he scolded me and say. why do i want such expensive stuff? why do my parents wanna give me luxury! fuck la kay?! and last time when my brother is at my age, he can always go out with he's friends. but me, they only know how to say "NO"!!! i asked why. then they said because i'm a girl. too young. will get raped, will get caught, will get chop and sooo much more! fuck la! they keep on saying i'm a damn cheap girl. fuck la! i really hate it. sometimes i feel like commit suicide cause of this family. they're really way tooo strict. and that day, my brother said. why a guy even want me? he said i'm dumb, stupid, useless, ugly, cheap and nothing special at all. then he said. sure that guy wanna make me pregnant then pay money and act like nothing will happen. i'm like! wat the fuck! i swear my boyfriend is not like that! then my older brother's girlfriend said, why am i rushing to have a boyfriend?! i feel like slapping her! not like its her life right?! i wish they can get out of my life!!!! and i can only go out with my friends at twenty ++ fuck la right?! five more years to go? i feel like dying. i want my friends now, i want my baby. i want you all here. i want a hug from you all. how much i wish there someone outside there can talk to my parents and that fuck up brother about what the fuck they're doing?! they're controlling me! can anyone please help me?! i feel like running away and have a life of my own! now, i cant go to liew kit's party. why? cause my brother didnt allow. why didnt he allow? he said i'll get rape, i'm desperate for sex, crazy over guys, i dont love myself and so much more la kay? he's a fuck up guy! he's 24 and not married! fuck la! most probably he's gf dont want him. he's gf is a master. why do she want him?! he's stupid to her too! fuck my brother la! why cant they just get out of my life?!! but there's only something good. if my brother's gf is getting mini cooper, its gonna be mine after she leave malaysia! yay! but they told me. no guys can go inside that car. i'm like wtf. what the fuck ? haha! i'm feeling better now, thanks muyo, claire and my dear! i just cant wait till i can drive!!

i cant wait till i can drive. i love my future car too (: thanks mummy.

ps, i hate my life still!